Socialisation

Inky, Pinky and Ponky came to anc at around midnight. They all occupied a table and started talking about something which all of them had in common, after a while inky wanted a coffee. So did pinky. So they both went to nescafe outlet and ordered two coffees. The guy gave only one coffee and forgot the other one. So now inky felt that pinky there is sitting alone and it does not really look good. So he went to the table and joined him.

The point I am trying to make from the small gesture inky made above is that how we view loneliness or to say a person seating alone. More or less a person sitting alone at redi, sky or cannought place is treated with expressions of pity or even shock at times. Mostly people cancel going to sky or redi just because they don't have company. My question is that after all
what exactly is so important about this company or how addictive it is, that we can't even survive a barely hour with our naked selves? why do we need someone or a group just to pass time? After all what do you seek from company? entertainment and nothing else since you don't have any of your thoughts and you can't possibly deal with yourselves for an hour and with those people giving you disgusted looks, pity faces. Putting it in more modern term, you feel like a loser. I think things are becoming too messy here. I shall put forward how exactly I view loneliness. For me, a person who does not really need other people is at a higher level than the rest. He is just independent. There are few reasons:

1) It is only possible in a case where he has found out his dream in life and what he wants to do for rest of his life (all my respects and envious looks if you fall in this category)

2) He has realised the whole concept of socialisation is big fart and I should be doing better things or leading my battle on my own.

To say from personal experience, in last four months I had my lonely times and there were times when I had to socialise just for sake of some old friends and there were times when I felt needy. There were some days when it was all too peaceful and it felt too independent but than sadly the feeling never lasted. Still it does not last. The point I am trying to make is from last few lines is that I have been viewing group activites, people hanging out quite differently. You are not really doing it because it's good to make new friends or you just like to talk about yesterday's twenty twenty match. It is all because you are jobless and you are too dependent and it is time we start respecting people who can put up on their own and fight their battles without anyone knowing about it. I am sure they don't care about what you think but it is time we look upto them and change our defintion of idols a bit.

It is quite possible that what I said above dint really make a lot of sense to you. There are two reasons for that, one being it is all too messy and it sucks. Second one is that you aint good enough to understand. The later one is more probable.

A theory called "GOD"

Well how often do we come across this question "Do you believe in god?" and most of the times person asking the question is either a strong believer in the existence of god or he is not. If you believe even partly in what he thinks it is good for you otherwise well the argument becomes so violent at times that only "GOD" can save you.

Most of you will be aware about the constant cold war going between religion and science. Now all of you must have come across this argument more than once that well " if u don't think the god exists then who created this universe? " and the argument does not have any replies since science can answer you what happened at time t = 1 sec but will be unable to say what exactly happened at time t = 0 sec, the day science finds an answer what exactly did happen time t = 0 sec and how this universe was created then religion won't have any unanswered questions I guess. Now how do you visualise god to be? the so called creator of this universe, hmmm lets try...a huge tall man with a long white beard, an unlasting kindness in his eyes, juggling 3-4 galaxies at a time. Over the years, every religion be it hindu, muslim or any other have described god in one or the other ways. It's different forms and the kindness the god posseses and so on.

Now if we think muslim religion also permits a guy to marry four women. Now according to hindu religion it is a sin. The reason ( as far as i know ) that muslim religion allowed a man to marry four women is that the time religion was formed sex ratio of man to woman was 1:4. So that was the primary reason of having such a law. So is it not possible to heal the wounds which were not healed by humans themselves or thought they can not be healed, those very humans were conditioned to believe in some super power by the learned men of those times?? or was it just a temporary answer to all unanswered questions of those times?? . Now I really don't know the answer and personally I believe everyone defines his or her own god.

For me well god is a faith which we believe in, a faith, a hope to see a better tomorrow, a reason to make people smile even in their toughest times. An energy which people find from the deepest corners of their minds and hearts in their worst times. God is that neverlasting reservoir of hope, faith, energy which is in every single human being that has ever stepped on this planet earth. I guess no one can question the authority of "this" god.

Now I don't know what will happen if some day science does discover what exactly happened at time t =0 sec. Hence proves that well guys there was no white bearded man after all. Still I am sure of the fact that my GOD won't die.

Thanks!

I just couldn't resist myself posting this monologue from one of my favourite movies "American beauty" so here it goes....

" I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me but its hard to stay mad when there is so much beauty in the world...sometimes I feel like I am seeing it all at once and its too much.... my heart fills like a balloon that's about to burst then I try to relax and stop trying to hold on to it then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. "

It fills with me new spirits whenever I read these few lines. Hope it serves the same purpose for you.

A dream

Well, I have often come across this question "who's the luckiest person in the world?". I am not really planning to give my opinion on this question that easily. To the readers unknown to me ( I am sure there is noone falling in this category ) well I am studying in bits-pilani and I just completed my first year. I often used to spark off discussions with whoever I possibly could, about a theory I call "default engineers". I am sure all of you reading this will have this theory somewhere at the back of your mind, yet I list a few salient points of the theory :

1) Most of the people studying in bits are not really passionate about engineering as a subject
2) If given a chance they would choose other fields over engineering ( irrespective of the so called "risks and courage" needed to pursue those fields )
3) They landed up in bits due to some or the other reasons that would include parental pressure...brother or sister in bits, best friend is doing it, or they just simply go with the flow
4) They all are surely gonna pursue something other then engineering for rest of their lives

After I am finished with my theory and they are also convinced that yeah it's true, the instant flurry of questions would be
1)"what exactly are we doing in bits?"
2) "shouldn't we just do what we love to do irrespective of how it will make my dad feel or how much money it would fetch?"
after a bit of discussion they would also agree that "yes, we should but what and how do we find out what we want to do?" The discussion would invariably hit a dead-end at this point. The motive of writing a post here is not really to address that question and frankly i dont know what the answer is, really. Though, I feel I have something more to say.

Here it goes, well, once you DO find it out, its gonna bring you that eternal joy and happiness that every human being on this planet earth is looking for, somewhere in his subconscious mind. An everlasting smile on your face without a reason that ur close pals, ur parents would love to see and feel happy about. U are gonna wake up with something to look forward every morning, with a determination to do something and be happy and satisfied about it when you end your day for every single day you live of your life.

so coming back to the first question "who is the luckiest person on this planet?" according to me a person, who knows what to do in his life from day one that is gonna give him an everlasting joy and an unbounded happiness. Let's say ,a sportstar who knows he wants to stay associated with the game for every single moment of his life after he had first played the game at the age of four, may be. My dream is to find out what I want to do in life that's gonna make me happy forever.

Now it does raise a few questions:
1) what if I never found out?
2) what if I think I found it and then it wasn't to be?
I have an opinion on these questions too but may be some other time...

This post is not really meant to show any kind of light in your life but yes it's an effort to pull some strings in your heart as well in your mind and yeah if things got a bit messy in the post then please let it go. I am just an amateur :).